Undone

Isaiah 6:5-8   So I said: “Woe is me, for I am undone! Because I am a man of unclean lips, And I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips; For my eyes have seen the King, The Lord of hosts.” 6 Then one of the seraphim flew to me, having in his hand a live coal which he had taken with the tongs from the altar. 7 And he touched my mouth with it, and said: “Behold, this has touched your lips; Your iniquity is taken away, And your sin purged.” 8 Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying: “Whom shall I send, And who will go for Us?” Then I said, “Here am I! Send me.”

It has been the longest dry spell in this ministries history that I have not written. Since 2012 I have written over 1,100 entries, never once not writing for over a month straight. I have shared my life’s highs and lows, and my faith to praise and endure all of it to my Lord Jesus Christ who’s hand it has filtered through. My faith in the sovereign power of God is what sustains me, what keeps me from crumbling in times such as these. I am hopefully, slowly, emerging from the worst depression ever, and only time will tell. Without the details, my plans were crushed, and a perfect storm that came with it, resulted in a near breakdown. It is still a very tender subject and one I guard closely, but it has truly taken the drive out of me, I only seek to get through the day, and likely change will come as a result of the last couple months.

The passage above is seemingly impossible to unpack into a OneMinuteMinistry. The evident power of God, the immense realization of sin, but the beauty of grace and forgiveness by the One whom gives it. Isaiah’s entire prophetic ministry is rooted in these three passages. In this heavenly vision and encounter, Isaiah would never be the same, and how blessed with are with his account of it through God’s design and provision. Has the weight of sin ever sat upon your chest? Has the realization of sin ever been so heavy that you are “undone?” Sin is not preached any more. Sin is a byproduct of the grace gospel preached in so many pulpits today. We hear all of what God can do for us, but we don’t hear our NEED for him. It is not about what you can get, but what he is gracious enough to give. The weight of sin, the realization of how much you NEED God, is where a humble heart is broken for God, and can be used by God. How can you be such as Isaiah and not realize how lost you are, and then the awakening of how lost those around you are?

God placed an incredibly tough call upon my life; the call of repentance of the American church, the supposed religious just like in the Bible. Sure, I seek for the lost to repent and believe just as much as anyone does, but God’s tug on my heart is for the ones whom think they are saved, and not. I grew up Christian, and questioned my salvation after the Lord showed me my sin such as Isaiah. I became undone, and pled for God to use me. The road of sanctification has been rough, and the pricks of Satan’s fiery darts hurt, but may all my life be used to draw glory to God. I am far from religious, far from perfect, fail daily, endure consistently, repentant prayers inadequately, seek diligently, but pray for him to send me….and for you to join me on this journey of becoming a true disciple of Jesus Christ, going against what the world cares, following God’s call and direction, and desiring only to hear those words, “Well done good and faithful servant; enter into the joy of the Lord.” Amen